First Crush

I loved staying at home, I hated going to school,

School appeared to me like the place of a fool.

I loved wandering across the corn fields, 

Looking up towards the sky;

Birds kept flying and chirping,

I Wished,  I could also fly high!

I liked to drive across the highway,

With dark jungles on both sides,

Maybe someday a tiger would come to say hello,

While I drove away on innumerable nights.

The stars glowed brighter, 

They covered the whole sky.

The owls hooted and the jackals howled,

I shivered in fear, I occasionally used to cry.

Life was going this way until she came around,

My heart suddenly gave a loud pumping sound.

I got a sudden unknown feeling that changed the route of my life,

She was our new neighbor's wife.

I used to come to my house roof every evening,

She sat on the opposite house roof's garden deck

She used to kiss the flowers and plants,

How I wished, I would also get a peck!!

Her husband abused her and was a heavy drunkard,

She mostly sat on the roof,

One day I gathered the courage to speak to her,

Something in me wanted proof.

I picked up a cardboard and wrote "Hi" on it,

I raised it high over my hands,

She saw me, she smiled and caressed her hair,

Memories are still afresh in the time sands.

Slowly, I became her best friend, she confided in me,

She was more prettier closer than far.

Her mesmerizing eyes, her charming smile took over me,

I forgot my age bar.

I was so happy with her, I used to share everything,

I never knew how time went by,

Her house was my second home,

She used to feed me everyday, she used to cook, bake and re-fry.

Then on the day of my final results,

Happened  the unwanted twist,

I came back with my results,

The city was covered in a mist.

I was planning to go her home but my mom stopped me,

She said they have gone away.

She handed me a letter,

My heart was beating faster, I was turning grey!!

Her husband got transferred and they left the town,

I still have the letter with me.

Whenever, I reread it again,

I still smile with a sad glee.

Thinking of those days and her again,

Increases my adrenaline rush,

I never got the chance to meet her again,

But she was, is and always will be my first crush..

Break up

I am silent, I feel crumbled inside;

I perceive to be numb.

Life has suddenly twisted me,

Showing me a downward thumb.

The pain keeps on increasing,

With every second passing by;

While I am still holding myself down,

On the bed, as I lie!

The parrot screeches loudly;

I cover my ears to prevent the sound.

The empty bottle of whiskey,

Is rolling over the ground.

The empty glass lies on the bedside table,

With a tinge of whiskey left in,

The used condom peeps out,

From the top of the uncleaned dustbin.

I am lying naked,

With a blanket covering my back,

My semen is scattered across the bed,

Her heels are still there on the shoe rack.

The porn is still running silently,

On my laptop screen.

But what I  am thinking about is her,

Her gentle kisses, her silent whispers, her enchanting smile,

Thoughts that are slowly becoming too keen!!

It has been months and she is gone,

She left me at her will,

But the scent of her skin, 

Her elegance lingers still.

I am dying to see her once, 

But she has blocked me everywhere,

I have decided not to disturb her,

She seems not to care.

Her heels are the only memory,

That I have of her's today

My room is messed up badly,

I have nothing to care for it or to say.

I miss her so much now,

But I guess I will now get up,

It has been exact 3 months,

Since that fateful day, the day of my break up!!!

He has come to meet me

I stare towards the window,
With numbness in my feet,
He has come to meet me,
He kept his promise, he did it!!


I still remember the day very clearly,
Although it's been quite some time;
But the memories are still afresh,
Like that of my favorite pickle of lime.


It was just a year ago,
I had met him at an eating stall,
He was fair, he was handsome,
And also he was moderately tall.


We talked for quite sometime,
While moments passed by,
I felt something strange inside me,
I wanted the whole world to standby!!


From hi hello, we fell in love,
I was so happy from within.
He meant the whole world to me,
Like the effect of glycerin on dry skin.


Then came the fateful day,
He was talking to me while driving his car,
A lorry couldn't hold brakes and barged into his vehicle,
It got thrown over, very far.


My entire world was shattered,
That was a year ago on this day!
God had taken him apart from me,
My colorful life suddenly turned to grey!!


But he kept his promise,
To meet me on this day,
And he indeed came,
From someplace far away!!


I stare towards the window,
With numbness in my feet,
He has come to meet me,
He kept his promise, he did it!!

The First Meeting

I walked in through the doorway,
The office looked large;
I was suddenly forced to moved aside,
Chunks of people started to barge.


The lobby was quite spacious,
With sofas spread around,
There was too much rush of voices from speakers,
But yet a distant refreshing sound.


I sat on the north faced sofa,
I picked up a magazine from the table,
The reception desk was empty,
And none around seemed helpful or suitable.


Then came the receptionist,
With a refreshing aroma hovering around,
I froze the moment I saw her;
She was such lovable,
I started shaking and my feet started loosing ground!!


She was wearing a blue top,
With hairs tied behind.
Her eyes were so mesmerizing,
I felt I'd go blind.


There was something enchanting about her lips,
I started to wonder.
I longed to hear her voice,
She was way more pretty than her photos on tinder.



I gathered up the courage to talk to her,
I raised up to just say a "Hi",
Inside I was shaking,
I was feeling shy!!


I stood in front of desk silently,
I had suddenly got numb.
This was love at first sight for me,
Shit! I was acting so dumb.


She started laughing at my shyness,
Her smile was something I could forever adore,
She asked me to wait for sometime,
Her voice was so scintillating that I craved for more and more!!


After some time she came to me,
Her aroma making me dazed,
I couldn't look straight in to her eyes,
Her presence made me fazed!!


Finally I accompanied her to the office canteen,
Indeed how lucky I felt!
My pride just got bigger
But my heart started to melt.


And this is how our first meeting went,
I am still waiting with dread.
However, I feel that wasn't so bad after all,
So I choose to be positive and patiently wait for the next time instead....

Highway

I was driving across the highway,
The sun was settling down.
The night was slowly crawling out,
With it's deep black gown.


The breeze flew right over my face,
Whispering into my ear;
"Go slow, be calm and relax" - It said
"Just reverse your life gear".


The chirping of birds was slowly fading;
As every minute passed by;
Distant lights slowly became visible,
Animals started to howl, squeak and cry.


The fields were silent and dark,
And crops swung with the breeze
I felt some one was calling out to me,
Someone had made me freeze!!


The serene surrounding filled my heart with joy,
And I stopped my car to observe;
There was indeed so much to learn and experience,
So much to enhance the learning curve.


But, a far away place awaited me,
With it's warm hands for me to hold,
So I had to drive my way through the highway;
I had to drive away from the cold.....!!

Dreams

Dreams keep you awake, dreams take you far.
Dreams help you survive through your inner war.
Dreams help you fall asleep and also wake up;
Dreams make you pour the correct liquid in the life cup!!


You fly high in the sky with your imaginary wings;
You listen to silent squeaks attached with your light heartstrings.
It keeps you alive in moments of despair,
And, it helps you recover and gain proper flair.


Dream helps you accomplish the most impossible task;
As if it's as easy as pouring tea in to a hot water flask;
Your confidence increases, your inner demons vanishes, you rise up and high,
You don't back yourself from more difficult tasks,
You whisper yourself to just give it a try;


Positive vibes surround you, inner strength encompasses you,
You take a leap of faith!!
Believe yourself, success will kiss you feet,
You will succeed more and more with each breath.


So, never stop dreaming and never stop believing,
Just rearrange the broken strings
And fly high with no holds barring,
No one will be able to cut your wings!!



So, never stop dreaming and never stop believing,
Just rearrange the broken strings
And fly high with no holds barring,
No one will be able to cut your wings!......

I promise, I will...

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

I know I am failing miserably, 

I know it's making you ill;

But, I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

Just two weeks ago we fought badly,

I shouted at you to leave;

But you don't know how I cried so badly afterwards

Tears rolled down my sleeve.

I know I argue during crucial discussions

I know I become illogical;

I know I focus on unimportant points;

To you, which aren't at all critical.

But trust me baby that whenever we discuss

Your safety and well being are the most that matters to me;

However, I fail to cope up with you,

I accept my failure with a glee.

Think of those times, when we promised never to be apart

We promised to always hold hands.

Those sweet memories have washed away;

Only remains the dusty roads, pebbles and sands.

I am imperfect, I am faulty,

I am causal and irresponsible.

However, I will never let u down

I will try as much as possible.

Give me one more chance baby,

Please don't go.

I will not be able to live with you;

Please don't do so.

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will...........