Broken

You left me suddenly and chose to walk away,

You never even cared for once, to look back,

I was completely broken inside,

And was left with a permanent crack!!

I suddenly remember the vows and promises,

That we had made together in the past;

Alas! those got ripped off so early,

And couldn't find even a reasonable time to last!!

I feel crumbled from inside,

Like a nyctophobian beneath a very dark shade,

I feel cutting my veins or hanging myself,

On the study table is lying a newly purchased shaving blade.

I feel so lonely, I feel so depressed,

I cry day in and day out,

While you must be having a gala time,

Clicking selfies with your ever sweet pout...!!

I promise however, to leave you to yourself,

Even if that gives me a lot more pain;

Because after the season of summer in love,

Comes the painful season of rain.

I wish you all the best for your future,

May you succeed and fly high!

May god look up on you with blessings,

From above the vanilla sky!!!

Together.... Forever..

On this day of the festive season,

With the gleam of the lamps glowing by,

I promise to always be by your side,

When life stoops low or rises high!!

With the blessings of the goddess,

With the purity of the soul,

I promise to always love you,

Along with a sharp focus on my careerist goal.

Life will be incomplete without you,

I need you badly, to be with me,

Together we shall sort out all problems,

Together...Forever shall we be.

Moments of arrogance will come and go,

But love will always remain intact,

I will hug you and kiss your problems away,

I promise to never ever judge or misact.

Please join me and come in to my life,

We shall ride across the tidal wave,

We shall fly above the sky, we will dip in to the oceans,

The piano of life will go on with it's own octave.

Life will be incomplete without you,

I need you badly, to be with me,

Together we shall sort out all problems,

Together...Forever shall we be.........

A cute love story

He stares at her with a fluffy face,

She looks back with grudge in her eyes,

He had promised her and yet didn't turn up,

Yesterday, under the vanilla skies.

He runs towards her, 

Panting with his tongue out,

She still remains angry,

And loudly begins to shout!!

He licks her all over,

And there comes a moment of doom!!

Dogs show love in this way only,

Their intentions are pure;

And hence, there is no reason to gloom!!

They love each other dearly,

And will never be divided by fate,

Together they march towards destiny,

With happiness waiting at it's gate...

Dinner with my wife

Spread across a large area, Shiv residential society is one of the largest societies in north Kolkata. With almost fifteen, ten storey buildings and five flats in each floor, it provides shelter to almost 750 families. Ramesh Ghosh is a resident of the said society. After marriage, he has recently shifted here with his wife.

Born and brought up in a middle class family, Ramesh had always been an aspirant for wealth and fame. For him life had always been about earning money and power. Initially starting with a career in sales, he quickly rose up the corporate ladder with his hard work and dedication. Currently he is the managing partner of a recruitment service provider company and also an affluent author. His sudden leap to fame is phenomenal, but somewhere in the quest for power, he has left behind his own people. His mother and father are already dead and he had long distanced himself from all dear and near cousins and relatives. Apart from his business circle and influential connections, he isn't a very family person. The only person in his family is his wife. Having married 6 months back, he is not able to give any time at all to her.


Radha is a very homely lady with surprisingly less demands. She is not from a very wealthy family and hence, she has chosen to co-operate her husband by performing all household works and never expecting any time or space from him in return. Being an workaholic, Ramesh always returns late at night and by then Radha has already gone to sleep. So, in a way their marital life doesn't exist and the couple only get to see each other's face for 5 hours in the morning when Radha serves Ramesh tea and breakfast. Ramesh rarely feels the need to hold Radha or even once look at her. This is how time passes by for another six months.



Today is 19.12.2020 - Ramesh and Radha's marriage anniversary. Ramesh has almost forgotten that he is married with a wife to whom he owes certain amount of time, space and commitment and Radha has become practically non - existent or chosen to do so. Ramesh has woken up early today as he has an evening meeting to attend and he couldn't do any initial preparation yesterday. Radha wakes up at 5 AM as usual to perform her duties as a loyal, husband loving wife. She remembers the significance of today but then, she has long stopped expecting anything from her husband. She realizes today that for the past five months, they haven't even spoken a word with each other. She goes to the washroom teary eyed and starts weeping inside.

"I never wanted such a pathetic life. Had my parents been alive today, this would have never happened. My uncle sold me in the name of marriage" - She weeps to herself, and then gets ready to do the puja and serve tea and breakfast to Ramesh.


Ramesh with utmost disregard to the day and his wife, leaves for office in his car. On reaching office, one of his employee wishes him happy anniversary and that sends a sudden surprise shock over his body. "How could I forget!!" - He exclaims and instantly orders his PA to deliver a bouquet of flowers to his wife. Even after remembering, he gives no importance to the day.


At around 6 PM, he has a a meeting scheduled with Mr. Nirav Malhotra, the director of a very large conglomerate group with whom Ramesh's company is supposed to have a tie up. Venue is a local food restaurant which serves very high quality food. This deal if finalized, will garner chunks of money for the company and Ramesh is very excited for the meeting. Nirav arrives right in time for the meeting to start. Ramesh orders some food for initial snacks and opens his laptop for presentation.


At 7 PM, an elderly couple, probably in their late sixties enter the restaurant. The waiter and the guard instantly block their way.
'Old man! Can't you see all tables are full. Why did you enter when it's all visible from outside?"- The guard asks.

"This place is where I had found her, my Radha" - The husband smilingly replies and continues "Today is our 40th anniversary. We don't know if we will be able to live, to make it through to the next one. So, I decided to take her out, might be for the final time to the place where it all started. Please let Ramesh feed his Radha for probably the last time".- The old man pleads.


A shock wave again moves through Ramesh's body. He starts fumbling. Although the presentation is almost over but this has never happened in his entire career. Tears rolls down his eyes with the realization that in the cat and mouse race for fame and money, he has left his life sideways long back and has never even bothered to look back. His thoughts get broken by a gentle tap from Nirav.

"Hey Buddy! You okay?" - Nirav asks. Ramesh suddenly has a thought in his mind. He knows this might affect his company deal, but for the first time he is willing to take the risk as his priorities have changed.

"Nirav, this meeting is almost over. Can we leave this table to the elderly couple talking there so that they can have what they wish for. I know this sounds crazy and also that you are leaving for Canada tomorrow but I think that.... It will be of help to them and also.... " - Ramesh starts blaming himself for loss of words. He knows what he just uttered isn't right and also Nirav will angrily cancel the deal.

"I understand Ramesh. I am happy that aside from a successful businessman you are also a good human being. You know humanity always comes above everything else and I am so lucky to do business with such a lovely human being. Your wife must be so lucky to have you" - Nirav replies and asks for the check. Tears again start rolling down Ramesh's eyes, but he stays mum.


The elder Ramesh blesses the younger one and Nirav departs with verbal finalization, assurance and best wishes. Ramesh books a table in the same restaurant for 9 PM at night, buys another set of flowers, this time picked by him and with a glimpse on the lovely elderly couple feeding each other, rushes towards home.


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Lying on her bed, Radha is crying loudly. Since there is no one home presently, she has let her inner sorrow out. She hears the main door bell ring.

Removing her tears, Radha moves towards the main door and peeps through the door hole. Seeing the person on the other side, her heart starts beating faster. To her utter surprise, Ramesh is standing on the other side with an impatient look and flowers in his hand.

Radha opens the door with her head down and Ramesh keels down over the ground, forwarding the flower bouquet towards her. Radha gets shocked and she doesn't even realize when her hands have automatically moved over her cheeks. Ramesh stands up as soon as she takes the bouquet in her hand, and before she could utter anything, he tightly grabs her and hugs her. Initially hesitant, Radha first tries to move him away and then starts beating him gently. But with Ramesh's strong and firm grip, she gives in and then starts crying, this time with much more noise.


"Sorry!! I am sorry for not being with you, when you needed me. I am sorry for not being with you, when you wanted me. I am sorry for not fulfilling my commitment. I am sorry for every pain that I have caused you. I am sorry for not being able to be a good husband. I am sorry for ruining one important year of your life. I am very very sorry. I love you!! and happy anniversary, sweetherat!!" - Ramesh talks so much at a single breath with Radha, for the first time in a while. Radha hugs him even tighter and starts crying and beating even more.......


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Radha and Ramesh are sitting at their pre-booked table in the restaurant. It's 9:00 PM at night and Radha feels it's a new beginning in her life, something they should cheer, celebrate and capture.

Ramesh's phone starts to ring. Although Radha signals a no, Ramesh picks up the call.

"Hi Sir. I know it's important but can we please talk tomorrow, if not urgent? I am currently out for  dinner with my wife and at this point of time, I prefer to dedicate my entire time to her. Thanks for understanding." - Ramesh cuts the call and looks towards Radha reassuringly.

Radha smiles. Something that she hadn't been able to do for quite sometime.....

Her Wedding Day

She is looking lovely in a sun kissed gown,

Hairs are tied tightly and she can't even frown.

Her eyes are pulling me intimately close,

Affecting on me like a mild hash dose.

The fireplace is ready, the stage is so lit,

People are eagerly awaiting their visual treat;

The Pujari is engaged in his own deeds,

The crowd is increasing as time slowly proceeds.

It suddenly reminded me of my old graduation days,

She was never my close friend but I admit to distant occasional gaze,

She was a rich student who came by her personal car;

To me she was an adorable but forbidden star!!

Four years went by; from classmates, we became close friends,

I used to fight with my silent feelings everyday, 

The fight continues even today; it never ends!!

We both eventually got placed and moved far away,

She moved to a separate city and I chose my hometown to stay;

An emptiness slowly engulfed me,

I missed her so much more.

Her smell, her hair, her lips, her touch,

I started to imagine her minute details to the core.

Then one fine day, she called me,

I picked up with an excited delight,

She informed me of her planned marriage,

And I imagined bashing my head, against the wall with all might!

So, here am I on her wedding day,

She will of someone else very soon,

I could never muster up the courage to tell her,

And thereby was left out like a broken spoon..

But I know I will have to move on,

This emptiness will have to stop,

Dancing at her wedding, I promise myself,

Life will henceforth be smooth and tiptop.........

The Kitten

My pet kitten died yesterday,

I loved it so much.

I am never going to pet an animal again,

I am not gonna do anything as such.

It used to squeak lightly,

It filled my heart with joy.

I played with it, I caressed it often,

To me it was a beautiful living toy.

I used to feed it milk mixed with water,

That I came to know later was wrong,

My lack of knowledge murdered the kitten,

That's why, I decided to dedicate it a song.

The dying moment was so painful to watch,

It tried to squeak but no voice came out,

I started crying, I tried to feed it but in vain,

Alas! All I could do was cry and shout.

At last, it slept in the cardboard box,

Taking it's final breath,

It opened it's mouth and raised it's little claws towards me,

I started to cry more, I wished to halt death.

It had got me in only seven days,

But then, it got taken away.

It couldn't get proper care or nutrition through me,

Hearing that, I had nothing left to feel or to say.

I am sorry that I couldn't save you kid,

I regret that I failed to make us a 'we',

But I promise that you will be born again very soon,

For me to realize that and to see.

I am sorry that I couldn't save you kid,

I regret that I failed to make us a 'we',

But I promise that you will be born again very soon,

For me to realize that and to see.

With this I end my dedicated song,

I wash my tears and will try to move on,

For now, you are gone away from me kid,

You are long long gone...

For You

I would have to go now,

I got work to do.

But remember I will be there,

I will always be there for you.

When life becomes tough for you,
When you sit back in fright,
I promise I will be there,
To make your days shining and bright!!


When come near me,
When you hold me tight,
I promise to strengthen my grip even more,
I promise to be an ever flying kite.


I will love you till my last breath,
I will help you in every life step,
Our life will run smoothly,
Much like a quality video tape.

I guess I have to go now,

I got work to do.

But, remember I will be there,

I will always be there for you.

The Mountain Girl

The night has spread it's dark armor, 

I come out of my hotel room.

Standing on the balcony, I lit a cigar,

The night and the trees are playing bride and groom !!

I order my dinner and take my glass of beer,

I come back to the balcony again,

The winds are howling, the distant rocks rumbling,

I suddenly hear a remote sound of cane.

The winds come to a stand still,

The rumbling comes to halt,

I go numb, the moment I see her,

The silence adds a pinch of salt.

Dressed in a tribal attire,

With a food plate in one hand;

She greets me with a warm smile,

Unable to respond, I foolishly stand.

She keeps the food on the table,

Besides my half empty glass of beer.

I try to remove the glass,

And suddenly we come too near.

Her smell ignites me with Passion,

Her hairs touches my face,

Her touch gives me a tingling sensation,

She has graceful eyes, our visions embrace.

She caresses her hair and smiles again,

She moves away from me,

My heart starts beating even faster,

Really! How beautiful is she!!

She wishes me goodbye and vanishes,
As swiftly as she came.

My heart is still beating fast,

I guess it's for her to tame.

I couldn't even ask her name, 

As I was completely lost in thoughts,

But I promise myself to inquire about her,
Certainly, I should give it some shots!!



She is indeed so precious to me,
She is an inaccessible pearl,
She already had me before she left,

She - The Mountain Girl!!

The Rose Plant

The rose plant stands alone in the neighborhood garden,
The young couples gather there and the old leave their burden.
People of all social classes come and go,
The rose plant greets everyone, It stands there to do so.


A thief once came along and slept beside it,
The plant however greeted him, irrespective of his fit,
He was shot in the chest, he was bleeding to death,
In deep sleep, he was trembling with fear,
Next morning, the dead body was taken way,
The plant shed a few drops of tear.


On valentine's day came a lovely couple,
The sat on a bench at the exact opposite,
The plant shed a flower and looked at them happily,
As if had something to see and treat!!



A little child once came playing along,
Her parents were sitting on a distant shade,
She removed one of the flowers from the plant,
It felt agony but nothing could be guessed from it's facade!!


The extraction of  a rose, had given the plant pain,
But it knew the rose had made the child happy,
And it meant to the child as much,
As a piece of bone to a little puppy.


An elderly couple once came along,
They were living on the edge of their life,
The rose plant greeted them with a glee,
They gave each other a high five!!
The old man plucked a rose from the plant,
He gave it to his soul mate.
Life sometimes offers a new beginning, while ending,
The meaning of life is such deep and great.



In such a way, days pass by,
People of all social classes come and go,
The rose plant greets everyone,
It stands there to do so....

First Crush

I loved staying at home, I hated going to school,

School appeared to me like the place of a fool.

I loved wandering across the corn fields, 

Looking up towards the sky;

Birds kept flying and chirping,

I Wished,  I could also fly high!

I liked to drive across the highway,

With dark jungles on both sides,

Maybe someday a tiger would come to say hello,

While I drove away on innumerable nights.

The stars glowed brighter, 

They covered the whole sky.

The owls hooted and the jackals howled,

I shivered in fear, I occasionally used to cry.

Life was going this way until she came around,

My heart suddenly gave a loud pumping sound.

I got a sudden unknown feeling that changed the route of my life,

She was our new neighbor's wife.

I used to come to my house roof every evening,

She sat on the opposite house roof's garden deck

She used to kiss the flowers and plants,

How I wished, I would also get a peck!!

Her husband abused her and was a heavy drunkard,

She mostly sat on the roof,

One day I gathered the courage to speak to her,

Something in me wanted proof.

I picked up a cardboard and wrote "Hi" on it,

I raised it high over my hands,

She saw me, she smiled and caressed her hair,

Memories are still afresh in the time sands.

Slowly, I became her best friend, she confided in me,

She was more prettier closer than far.

Her mesmerizing eyes, her charming smile took over me,

I forgot my age bar.

I was so happy with her, I used to share everything,

I never knew how time went by,

Her house was my second home,

She used to feed me everyday, she used to cook, bake and re-fry.

Then on the day of my final results,

Happened  the unwanted twist,

I came back with my results,

The city was covered in a mist.

I was planning to go her home but my mom stopped me,

She said they have gone away.

She handed me a letter,

My heart was beating faster, I was turning grey!!

Her husband got transferred and they left the town,

I still have the letter with me.

Whenever, I reread it again,

I still smile with a sad glee.

Thinking of those days and her again,

Increases my adrenaline rush,

I never got the chance to meet her again,

But she was, is and always will be my first crush..

Break up

I am silent, I feel crumbled inside;

I perceive to be numb.

Life has suddenly twisted me,

Showing me a downward thumb.

The pain keeps on increasing,

With every second passing by;

While I am still holding myself down,

On the bed, as I lie!

The parrot screeches loudly;

I cover my ears to prevent the sound.

The empty bottle of whiskey,

Is rolling over the ground.

The empty glass lies on the bedside table,

With a tinge of whiskey left in,

The used condom peeps out,

From the top of the uncleaned dustbin.

I am lying naked,

With a blanket covering my back,

My semen is scattered across the bed,

Her heels are still there on the shoe rack.

The porn is still running silently,

On my laptop screen.

But what I  am thinking about is her,

Her gentle kisses, her silent whispers, her enchanting smile,

Thoughts that are slowly becoming too keen!!

It has been months and she is gone,

She left me at her will,

But the scent of her skin, 

Her elegance lingers still.

I am dying to see her once, 

But she has blocked me everywhere,

I have decided not to disturb her,

She seems not to care.

Her heels are the only memory,

That I have of her's today

My room is messed up badly,

I have nothing to care for it or to say.

I miss her so much now,

But I guess I will now get up,

It has been exact 3 months,

Since that fateful day, the day of my break up!!!

He has come to meet me

I stare towards the window,
With numbness in my feet,
He has come to meet me,
He kept his promise, he did it!!


I still remember the day very clearly,
Although it's been quite some time;
But the memories are still afresh,
Like that of my favorite pickle of lime.


It was just a year ago,
I had met him at an eating stall,
He was fair, he was handsome,
And also he was moderately tall.


We talked for quite sometime,
While moments passed by,
I felt something strange inside me,
I wanted the whole world to standby!!


From hi hello, we fell in love,
I was so happy from within.
He meant the whole world to me,
Like the effect of glycerin on dry skin.


Then came the fateful day,
He was talking to me while driving his car,
A lorry couldn't hold brakes and barged into his vehicle,
It got thrown over, very far.


My entire world was shattered,
That was a year ago on this day!
God had taken him apart from me,
My colorful life suddenly turned to grey!!


But he kept his promise,
To meet me on this day,
And he indeed came,
From someplace far away!!


I stare towards the window,
With numbness in my feet,
He has come to meet me,
He kept his promise, he did it!!

The First Meeting

I walked in through the doorway,
The office looked large;
I was suddenly forced to moved aside,
Chunks of people started to barge.


The lobby was quite spacious,
With sofas spread around,
There was too much rush of voices from speakers,
But yet a distant refreshing sound.


I sat on the north faced sofa,
I picked up a magazine from the table,
The reception desk was empty,
And none around seemed helpful or suitable.


Then came the receptionist,
With a refreshing aroma hovering around,
I froze the moment I saw her;
She was such lovable,
I started shaking and my feet started loosing ground!!


She was wearing a blue top,
With hairs tied behind.
Her eyes were so mesmerizing,
I felt I'd go blind.


There was something enchanting about her lips,
I started to wonder.
I longed to hear her voice,
She was way more pretty than her photos on tinder.



I gathered up the courage to talk to her,
I raised up to just say a "Hi",
Inside I was shaking,
I was feeling shy!!


I stood in front of desk silently,
I had suddenly got numb.
This was love at first sight for me,
Shit! I was acting so dumb.


She started laughing at my shyness,
Her smile was something I could forever adore,
She asked me to wait for sometime,
Her voice was so scintillating that I craved for more and more!!


After some time she came to me,
Her aroma making me dazed,
I couldn't look straight in to her eyes,
Her presence made me fazed!!


Finally I accompanied her to the office canteen,
Indeed how lucky I felt!
My pride just got bigger
But my heart started to melt.


And this is how our first meeting went,
I am still waiting with dread.
However, I feel that wasn't so bad after all,
So I choose to be positive and patiently wait for the next time instead....

Highway

I was driving across the highway,
The sun was settling down.
The night was slowly crawling out,
With it's deep black gown.


The breeze flew right over my face,
Whispering into my ear;
"Go slow, be calm and relax" - It said
"Just reverse your life gear".


The chirping of birds was slowly fading;
As every minute passed by;
Distant lights slowly became visible,
Animals started to howl, squeak and cry.


The fields were silent and dark,
And crops swung with the breeze
I felt some one was calling out to me,
Someone had made me freeze!!


The serene surrounding filled my heart with joy,
And I stopped my car to observe;
There was indeed so much to learn and experience,
So much to enhance the learning curve.


But, a far away place awaited me,
With it's warm hands for me to hold,
So I had to drive my way through the highway;
I had to drive away from the cold.....!!

Dreams

Dreams keep you awake, dreams take you far.
Dreams help you survive through your inner war.
Dreams help you fall asleep and also wake up;
Dreams make you pour the correct liquid in the life cup!!


You fly high in the sky with your imaginary wings;
You listen to silent squeaks attached with your light heartstrings.
It keeps you alive in moments of despair,
And, it helps you recover and gain proper flair.


Dream helps you accomplish the most impossible task;
As if it's as easy as pouring tea in to a hot water flask;
Your confidence increases, your inner demons vanishes, you rise up and high,
You don't back yourself from more difficult tasks,
You whisper yourself to just give it a try;


Positive vibes surround you, inner strength encompasses you,
You take a leap of faith!!
Believe yourself, success will kiss you feet,
You will succeed more and more with each breath.


So, never stop dreaming and never stop believing,
Just rearrange the broken strings
And fly high with no holds barring,
No one will be able to cut your wings!!



So, never stop dreaming and never stop believing,
Just rearrange the broken strings
And fly high with no holds barring,
No one will be able to cut your wings!......

I promise, I will...

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

I know I am failing miserably, 

I know it's making you ill;

But, I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

Just two weeks ago we fought badly,

I shouted at you to leave;

But you don't know how I cried so badly afterwards

Tears rolled down my sleeve.

I know I argue during crucial discussions

I know I become illogical;

I know I focus on unimportant points;

To you, which aren't at all critical.

But trust me baby that whenever we discuss

Your safety and well being are the most that matters to me;

However, I fail to cope up with you,

I accept my failure with a glee.

Think of those times, when we promised never to be apart

We promised to always hold hands.

Those sweet memories have washed away;

Only remains the dusty roads, pebbles and sands.

I am imperfect, I am faulty,

I am causal and irresponsible.

However, I will never let u down

I will try as much as possible.

Give me one more chance baby,

Please don't go.

I will not be able to live with you;

Please don't do so.

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will.

Baby don't go, please don't go

Please stand still

I promise I will make it up to you,

I promise I will...........