Break up

I am silent, I feel crumbled inside;

I perceive to be numb.

Life has suddenly twisted me,

Showing me a downward thumb.

The pain keeps on increasing,

With every second passing by;

While I am still holding myself down,

On the bed, as I lie!

The parrot screeches loudly;

I cover my ears to prevent the sound.

The empty bottle of whiskey,

Is rolling over the ground.

The empty glass lies on the bedside table,

With a tinge of whiskey left in,

The used condom peeps out,

From the top of the uncleaned dustbin.

I am lying naked,

With a blanket covering my back,

My semen is scattered across the bed,

Her heels are still there on the shoe rack.

The porn is still running silently,

On my laptop screen.

But what I  am thinking about is her,

Her gentle kisses, her silent whispers, her enchanting smile,

Thoughts that are slowly becoming too keen!!

It has been months and she is gone,

She left me at her will,

But the scent of her skin, 

Her elegance lingers still.

I am dying to see her once, 

But she has blocked me everywhere,

I have decided not to disturb her,

She seems not to care.

Her heels are the only memory,

That I have of her's today

My room is messed up badly,

I have nothing to care for it or to say.

I miss her so much now,

But I guess I will now get up,

It has been exact 3 months,

Since that fateful day, the day of my break up!!!