The Blue Diary

Prakhar moves in to a new flat. The process of shifting is not so easy. He had to hire a mini matador and still complete in two shifts.

The flat is nice. It's quite spacious with two rooms, one hall and a kitchen, fully furnished. Getting such a beautiful flat for such a small amount is really difficult. He came to know, before him, a girl lived here on rent. She moved out without any known reason and that too suddenly. So, he got lucky.

Prakhar sits down on the sofa. He still hasn't explored the flat properly. Besides, the memories of a bad break up are not easily forgotten. He decides to have a bath and take a nap.

"I will arrange the things properly, in evening." - He says to himself.

He wakes up at 5 PM. It's soon going to be dark. He gets up and starts arranging. After arranging the bedroom, he moves to the other room. The room is small, with one dining table and a television. Over the table, he sees a small blue diary. He assumes that the previous resident might have left it. Somehow, the diary arouses his interest. He picks it up and keeps it in his pocket.

The arranging takes about 3 hours. At about 9 Pm, he orders dinner and sits on his bed to rest. He takes out the diary from his pocket.

The diary is written by a girl, probably the previous resident of this flat, who forgot to take her belonging.

15th July, 2014:
Today, I met him for the first time. He is so hot. He took me at the first instance, itself. I myself went ahead to talk with him. I might have made love as well. I will keep on meeting with him. Let's see if he is as good by nature, as he looks.


17th July,2014:
Today,I met him again. I keep falling, the more I meet him. Everyday day spent without seeing him, feels like years. I just wish he would feel the same for me. The date was really romantic. He took me to a movie hall. There was very little audience. He caressed my hair and pulled me closer. I felt uncomfortable. He understood and let go instantly. At that point, I really wish he hadn't. I regretted.


23rd July, 2014:
Today we kissed for the first time. He is a good kisser. I was too much into it, not to let him go. The fire in us kept us going.He took me to his flat and we had some good sex. We were totally in to each other. I never wanted it to end. But all good things come to an end. His room mate interrupted and we had to part ways. I wish similar events would occur again.


27th July, 2014:
We had a nasty fight today. I felt it was really important as it was somehow disrespecting my prestige. I cannot let my prestige go down, for his values. How dare he shout on me. I will never speak to him again. He might fucking die.


10th August,2014:
He called me today. I didn't pick up. I wish we could be together again, but my respect comes above all. He just wanted my body and he wants it again. But, I am not going to be fooled again. Yesterday, I had a talk with his friend. He told me that Rahul loves me. It's just a clash of ego's. We both need to let it go else it might be too late.I don't care. I am not gonna listen. He must apologize, if he needs me. Else, he may fuck off.


19th September, 2014:
He didn't receive my calls. I have decided to ignore him, furthermore. How dare he ignores me. I was so stupid and blunt to call him. I will never again.


20th September,2014:
He was again calling me. I ignored. I have every right to, when he did the same yesterday. He even messaged me sorry. But, who cares? I would always ignore him. His chapter in my life is over.


23rd September, 2014:
It has been three days. He hasn't called or messaged once. He is again ignoring me. Let's see who wins. I will not take the first step.


26th September, 2014:
OMG!! He is dead.On 20th, he was calling me to make things better. When I didn't pick up the phone, he rode on his bike to come to my home. He met with an accident on the way. How stupid of me to let my ego guide me. For a moment, I should have thought of us together, the moments we had shared. God, I am crying. I saw his dead body. I should have let it go. I will never be able to see him again. Please god, bring him back to me. I promise to make everything right. Ego really destroys relationships.


The diary has no more content. Other pages are blank. Prakhar is saddened by the story. How the poor girl might have felt. He took out his phone and dialled a contact.

"Hello Kavita. How are you? Listen yaar, I am really sorry. Please, can we meet?" - Prakhar says.

"But, why? When you said that everything is over between us, why do you want to meet? To hurt me again? - asks Kavita.

"Nooo... Please, I beg. I love you. Please meet me." - Prakhar starts crying.

"Hey!! Don't cry, Okay. I will, surely. Meet me today, at Ballygaunge CCD at 7 PM. Now, stop crying. I love you too. - says Kavita.

Prakhar smiles and disconnects the call. He starts crying even more out of joy. The girl's story in the diary has made him learn a big lesson. He will not let his ego ruin everything, any more. It's not too late. He will make everything right. He surely will....

The Interview

22nd June,2015:

Ratnakar is very happy today that finally, he got his posting. But he is somehow sad also, because he will have to leave his hometown shortly. More 15 days are left, after which he will have to bid adieu to this place. All his memories started flashing before his eyes. Then, Seema popped in to the flashes of his memory.

1st September, 2014:

Ratnakar is in the final year of college. Not many companies are coming for campussing and so he is very tensed about his future. In meanwhile of this, he gets a call from a multinational company for interview.

Tensed,he goes to the given venue for interview. It is there, that he meets Seema for the first time. Her well dressed attire, firmly tied hair and a beautiful smile, instantly makes him weak. But, the tension of cracking the interview and getting placed, makes him forget his feelings. 

Finally, after a round of 4 interviews, Ratnakar finally bags the job. Being overjoyed, he calls his parents to inform the good news. 

"Congratulations." - A lovely voice calls him, from behind.

He turns around. He sees the same girl standing before him, whom he wanted to interact. His heart started beating fast.

"Hi.. I am Seema. And you are?" - Seema asks

Ratnakar is still staring at her. After an uncomfortable sound by Seema, Ratnakar answers,"Oh Ya. Hmm, Hii!! I am Ratnakar. Thank you. You also came for an interview and have got selected?" - Ratnakar asks, pretending to not know anything.

"Yeah. We are the two from Kolkata. As we are requested to wait for an hour or even more for the documentation, can we go to the cafeteria to wait as well as eat something?" - Seema asks.

Ratnakar accompanies her. They chat for long. They talk about their families, their background, their studies as well as hobbies. Ratnakar never wanted these moments to end.

However, after 1 hour, Seema is called inside for verification. Ratnakar waits and waits for her to come out, so that they could exchange phone numbers. He is really stupid enough not to ask for a phone number, even after such a long chat.


30 minutes passes by. An attendant comes out and he is also called in. He exhales with grief, as he wanted the process to be delayed and he could see her once. But, all his wishes resulted in a toss of the bad coin.

After his documentation gets over, he comes to know the girl has already left.

"Did she tell anything?" - Ratnakar asks the canteen attendant.

"Yeah. She left a note for a guy, she said would come looking for her. She told to inform him that she was in a hurry.So, she had to go.I guess you are the guy." - The attendant replies, and adds,"But, unfortunately, I have misplaced the note."

The little happy face of Ratnakar fades away. He looks palely at the attendant.

"I am sorry" - the attendant replies and walks towards the customer table.

Ratnakar stands there thinking about how he missed his chance, and that the same would never come back again.

He exits with a dull face.

Post that day, Ratnakar tries every possible way to reach her. But, he gets nothing. Slowly, he gives up hopes and with time, her memories fades away.


22nd June,2015:
It's been almost a year and the joining letter has finally arrived. Seema's story is however, still incomplete.

"It's almost a year. The joining lettr arrived so late. Don't know whether she is even joining this company. Might be she is already working somewhere." - Ratnakar says to him and gets up o go downstairs, as his mother has called him.


25th June, 2015:
Ratnakar gets an e-mail from the company. The required venue where he has to go as well as all other details are mentioned in the e-mail.

He was going through the e-mail, when his phone suddenly rings.

The call is from an unknown number.

"Hello!" - Ratnakar picks up.

"Hi. Ratnakar, right?" - A girl speaks from the other end.

"Yes. Who is this? - Ratnakar asks,

"It's Seema here. How are you?"- The girl replies.

For some time, Ratnakar becomes numb.He pinches himself, thinking he is dreaming.

"Hello! you are still there?"- Seema asks.

"Yes. Tell me. How are you? How's life? Are you working anywhere? How did you get my number?" - asks Ratnakar.

"Go slow, baby. I got your number from the HR. I checked the mail and called the HR to ask whether you are joining or not. Although hesitant, but she got carried away, when I told her about our past romantic encounter. She gave me your number and wished me luck." - Seema replies.

"For what. I mean luck, for what?" - Ratnakar asks.

"As if you don't know. Stupid!!." - Seema replies, laughing.

Both knows what the other is talking about. Ratnakar laughs. "Let's meet!!" - Ratnakar tells Seema.

"I thought I would never hear it from you. Today, 6 PM, New Alipore Barista. Done?" - Seema asks.

She knew the answer. Ratnakar gets up to dress. It's already 4:45. He has to go a long way.

He has got his chance again. He will not miss it this time....

Love at first sight

People say there is something called as love at first sight. Ramesh never believed it. According to him love takes time and understanding to happen. But, one day he himself, fell in love at first sight. This story narrates the incident from beginning.

22nd January:

Ramesh is sitting in the college canteen, with his two buddies. The topic of discussion is love and humanity.

Rajeev says,"Love is a wonderful feeling. I believe love at first sight is the best. You see her, feel her and you get drowned away in her"

Ramesh laughing says,"You mean like what? Is she a sea or river, that you get drowned away?"

Rajeev replies,"Dude,I know you don't believe in love. But, trust me, one day you will fall in true love. You will then understand it's essence. But, why insult something when you don't believe it. Avoid it."

Tanmay supported Rajeev. Ramesh laughed the words away. He then changed the topic.


Ramesh is a 22 years old, college student. Very much practical and down to earth, is what he feels he is. And yes, he doesn't believe in love. According to him, it's a waste of time.


14th February:

Today is valentine's day. People are enjoying with their life partners. Ramesh is all alone, watching a movie. But, all that doesn't matter to him. He is fine with it.

"Oh shit. It's 8 PM. Parimal sir had called. I will be late,"- Ramesh says to himself and gets up to dress and takes out his bike.

He reaches the tuition house at 8:30, already 15 minutes late.

"May I come in sir?"- Ramesh asks, On being nodded by sir, he enters the room.

"What Ramesh. Everyone is absent today. All are out enjoying with beloved. You are from one rare species. Why are you at home. Seriously, you found no one?" - Parimal sir asks

"No sir. I don't want it. I guess I am not born for all this shit. I am happily single"- Ramesh replies with a smile.

Parimal exclaims. After a short pause, he says,"Ohkay. Ramesh, I believe love is for everyone. One day, you will also fall for the same. May be, today only."

As soon as his words finish, a sweet voice comes from outside,"May I come in?"

Ramesh's eyes move instantly, towards the door. Standing there is a girl, of almost same or similar age. Fair in complexion wearing a decent dress. The colour was green,

On hearing a yes, she comes in.

Ramesh's eyes fixed on the girl. He couldn't move them from her. For the first time in life, he felt his heart beating fast. In fact, too fast. The feeling couldn't be defined. The girl had seized his heart. This is love at first sight. And yes, it exists. Thoughts clarified itself, before him.

"Shikha, meet Ramesh. He will guide you regarding the missed classes. Ramesh, this is Shikha. She had joined a little late, and so, she missed two classes. You have any problem?" - Parimal sir asks.

"Absolutely not, sir. Hi Shikha, Ramesh here. Nice meeting u." - Ramesh says, his heart still beating fast.

"Hi." - Replies Shikha. She is shy.

"I would surely help her. I will have to. So, love exists. I was wrong. Now, let me see, I succeed or not"- Ramesh says to himself, and moves towards her.

Strangers

Two strangers meet on a road side park,
There was no one, no sound around, except some dog's bark,
They smiled at each other, they exchanged a glance,
Destiny might have given them a chance,
They chatted, they smiled, for really long,
The guy could remember a beautiful song;
Ultimately, promising to meet again, they parted ways,
The memory was no where to go, it stays!!


They kept on meeting again and again, in a similar way,
Every meeting turned into a cherisable memory to stay,
They exchanged glances, they exchanged words,
Might be the god of will had loosened his swords,
Never did they try to take things deeper,
They felt it would make the relation cheaper;
Ultimately, promising to meet again, every time, they parted ways,
The memory was no where to go, it stays!!



Then, one day, he came, but she didn't come.
The moment was disturbing, if not for all, for some;
He waited for long, he was anxious with thoughts,
He felt thirsty, but there was nothing, he had brought;
He ran to her home, his legs were shaking,
He wanted to talk to her, but it was not in the making;
Ultimately, he reached and rang the door bell,
An old lady opened and when asked, cried out "There is nothing to tell"



She had cancer, she knew she was about to die,
She loved him too, but that's why, she never said that, that's y
Finally, she passed away, her life was too less,
She however died smiling, with a dignified grace!!!
He ran away from the door, he was crying out loud,
He felt something shaking beneath, he felt it was the ground;
He tried to kill himself, he wanted to join her in any way,
She appeared suddenly from nowhere and stopped him,advising to stay,



She said that she would never want him to die, but live long,
She said she wants him to get over it and be strong,
She finally bid him goodbye and vanished in the air,
He looked around, he cried, he looked around in a teary stare;
Finally he decided to live long, fulfilling her last dying wish,
He smiled across looking at the sky, the sky was blackish,
He threw a flying kiss to the sky, he felt she returned it,
He imagined it all, a definite visual treat:
And thus, promising to never meet again, they parted ways,
The memory was no where to go, it stays!!

South City Mall

Thud!!

Rohan wakes up with a loud thud. The car ran over a bumper. 

"Wake up fucker!! How long will you sleep?. Come on man, we are going to enjoy. What is the fun, if you sleep all the way? or is it that you are thinking of her again?", Rajeev asked.

"No, I just fell asleep", Rohan said. However, in actuality, he was thinking of her. 

The story shifts two months back:

"Beep.... beep"!!!

Rohan woke up. He had fallen asleep in the car. Why will he not? It's 5 AM in the morning. He is however, very happy. He is finally going to Singapore for 12 days. His B - Tech semester is over and it's time for vacation.  

The car reached airport. Rohan got out of the car with his family. As it was an agency trip, he had to wait for the other families and the agent to arrive.

After 10 minutes, the agent arrived, followed by the families. There were total seven families. Six had already arrived. One was yet to come. It was almost after a wait of 30 minutes, that the last family arrived.

Until then, everyone was already introduced. It was late and the international immigration processes take lot of time. Everyone was eagerly and angrily waiting for the last family to arrive.      

Rohan was also feeling angry, because he didn't like waiting. But, it is then he saw her for the first time. His heart started beating fast, in fact too fast. The family that came last had four people; parents and their two daughters.

She was probably the younger one. She was of middle height, a little dusky in complexion, may be not so to be called an angel. But, at the first instant itself, she had his heart. Her curly hair, smoky eyes and a moderate visual appeal, made him fall for her steeply.


Then what followed was a memorable trip for 17 days. Everyone was nice. But, she seemed to be the nicest. Her curly hair, lovely lips, mild fragrance and sometimes, attracting curves, had made him lost completely in a separate world. Rather than the trip and the scenic beauty, he was more in to her.

On a particular day, she was sleeping on the last seat of the travel bus and he was just observing her. She looked even more beautiful, while asleep. She also had a beautiful name,"Mimi". Everything about her was so perfect to him. Slowly, the trip came to an end. Rohan could feel that he has completely fallen for her, and he will no longer be able to see her anymore.

On the departing day, Rohan was too sad. The memorable trip had come to an end as well as she will no more be seen. However, being of shy nature, he couldn't ask of any contact details from her. All he said was a good bye and departed. She also bade him the same, and there itself, the could be budding story, came to an end.


After coming back, he had tried many times to reach out to her. He had requested all his friends who stayed near to where she stayed to try and provide her contact details. But, all his efforts resulted in vain. he realized that in actuality, these things don't happen so easily and he gave up. But, he couldn't erase her from his memories and everyday, he prayed to god, that he might get a second chance.



Two months passed by.

Present Day:
Rohan and his friends are going to South City mall. Rohan has understood that he will never be able to reach her in any way and has slowly given up all hopes. In fact, he is now trying to forget her.

"Yeah!! Let's play antakshari. I won't fall asleep again."- Rohan replies to Rajeev. They start playing antakshari. The car reaches the mall in about 30 more minutes.

Rohan gets down. Rajeev had to buy a girl's salwar kameez for his sister. So, they plan to go to Pramod. They decide to chill after the shopping gets over.


After the required shopping, they sit, eat and relax at CCD. Rohan gets glimpses of her many times and even feels that she is nearby. But, he decides to give the feelings a rest, and enjoys with his friends.

After an hour, they get in to the car.

"Shit!! This is not the dress, I bought. I must have been misplaced. Let's go to the shop, once again."- Says Rajeev.

"Nah bro, we are tired. You go alone. Meanwhile, we stay in the car" - Vinod replies.

"Okay.I am going with him. You all please wait." - Rohan says, and they both get down from the car.


They enter the shop. After a short brief at  the payment counter, they finally get the lead. The name of the woman is Mrs. Rimi Datta. Her address as mentioned in the bill is Behala, not far from the mall. Rohan typing the number, dials it.


"Hello!!" - A heavy voice answers the call on the other side.

"Hi Ma'am. I am Rohan calling from the south city mall. It appears that our purchases have been interchanged." - Rohan speaks.

"Really? Let me check. Ok! Yes. Shit! God!! It is a gift, I bought for my niece. Can you please drop in at my home. Her birthday is tomorrow. I thought of presenting it to her tonight. Please can you help? - The woman replies exhausting. She seems to be panick.

"Okay. Don't worry. We will. It's almost 10 PM now. We will be reaching in another 40 minutes. Meanwhile, please keep your parcel and bill intact. It's a gift from my friend to his sister." - Rohan says.

"Okay. Thanks a lot. "- The woman replies, with a relief in her voice.

Rohan cuts the call, and tells Rajeev of his plan. They both decide to help the girl. After departing from the rest of the group, they board a cab with the mentioned address. Due to heavy evening traffic, they reach the place at almost 11: 30 PM.

They ring the bell, and a good looking woman, probably in her forties opens the door. " You both are from the South City mall, correct?" - asked the woman, even before opening the door.

Rohan replies,"Yes, we are. Here is your package. Can we have ours?"

The woman heartily takes her package and says,"Thanks a lot to both of you. It's my niece's 22nd birthday, and so I decided to gift her. Please come inside."

They entered the flat. It was a nicely decorated flat, with many antiques. They sit on the sofa. The woman who had entered the kitchen, comes out with two glasses of water.

"Please wait. They will be coming in no time. You both cannot leave with out having a piece of cake. Please stay." - The woman says and before listening to them, rushes to open the door as the bell rings.

Three people enter the flat. Parents and their daughter. To his utter astonishment Rohan sees Mimi entering the flat. So, the dress is for her and it's 10 minutes left, for her 22nd birthday. He had always wanted to see her, but never had he ever thought, that would be true. In his imagination, he danced with joy.


Rohan marches ahead. "Hello aunty, uncle. Happy birthday."- He says looking at Mimi. Mrs. Datta introduces him and Rajeev.

"Thank you.",Mimi replies. "I have seen you somewhere before"

Rohan laughs. He will stay here until the event gets over. Good has forgiven his foolishness and given him, a second chance. He will not let it go. He will not.

Unusual Love Story

The wall clock ticked 7 AM. The alarm started ringing too loudly. Sahil woke up from sleep with a loud thump. The alarm clock fell on the floor.

Sahil looked up. The curtains were open and he felt a fresh breeze over his face. "Good Morning bro"- He said to himself and got up. It was Thursday and he had an important meeting to attend at 8. So, he got up and rushed to the bathroom.

Half an hour have passed away. Sahil is standing in front of the main gate of an office. The sign board reads "Truewall Publications". He has come with a proposal to get his writing published. All the struggles and moments of frustrations he had to bear, flashed before his eyes, in a glimpse of seconds.

Dressed in proper formals, he entered the building and was redirected to the new acquaintance department. He enquired at the reception, wherein he was told to wait, as the concerned person is busy. He sat on the waiting lobby, and got submerged in thoughts.

After 15 minutes, the receptionist girl called in. "Mr. Sahil Roy. Please come in." Sahil got up and entered the discussion room. Entering, he saw a well dressed man, probably of the same age he is of, sitting on the opposite side of the deck.

"Hello Mr. Roy. Samarendra here, from the new acquaintance team. Please have a seat."- The person said. Sahil observed that the person had an impressive modulation in his voice, that may compel people to do work, as per his wishes.

Sahil sat down on his chair, took a sip of water and started " Good Morning Sir. I am Sahil Roy from Ballygaunge. Since child hood, I have always aspired to be a writer. I have had written many stories, amongst which the one, which I feel the best, is submitted to your company. I wish you would like it."

Samarendra smiled. Somehow, Sahil felt a little uncomfortable. He started " Mr. Roy. This doesn't work this way. We have our own editing and approving team, in the Konnagar branch. The story has been forwarded to them. They will approve your story, if they feel so. Then we will call you for discussing the commercials. Till then, you can check in at the Konnagar branch, for enquiries as well as fastening the process."

Samarendra paused for a moment and then asked,"You have anything to ask, Mr. Roy?"

Sahil's hope was not completely fulfilled, but it wasn't destroyed either. Of Course, these things take time to be accomplished. He smiled and asked,"Can I have the number of the Konnagar branch?"

"Yeah, surely. Please collect it from the reception. Anything else?"- Samarendra asked.

"Not at all sir. it was nice meeting you."- Sahil replied, shook his hands and came out of the room. He collected the number from the reception and exited from the building.

Following that day's event, seven days passed by. He didn't get any call from the publication house. He had tried calling both the editing branch, as well as the head office, but nothing fruitful occurred. Slowly, he was loosing hope. He decided to pay a visit to the Konnagar branch, for further queries.

Visiting Konnagar from main Kolkata, is a tedious task. Changing train twice, after a bus journey of almost 45 minutes, made Sahil sweat with tiredness. Once reaching the office and asking for the concerned person, he was told to visit Ms. Rupama Banerjee, on the left most cabin of the ground floor.

Sahil knocked the door. It read, Ms. Rupama Banerjee, AGM, New Acquisitions. A sweet voice from inside said,"Come in.".

Sahil went in. There was a lady dressed in black, sitting on the cabin. Seeing her was the most beautiful sight to look at. She looked like an angel down on Earth, to shower blessings on it's people. Sahil's hear started beating fast and imaginary sky crackers covered up the skies of Kolkata. At first sight only, the lady had taken his heart.

Sahil asked ,"May I come in?"

The lady replied,"Yes Mr. Roy. Please come in. Have a seat."

Sahil came inside and sat down on the sofa. It was cozy. Rupama started ," Mr. Roy please give me 10 minutes, before we begin. I am occupied with some important work. Meanwhile, would you like to have tea or coffee?"

Sahil nodded and Rupama ordered for tea. She then went back to her work. Meanwhile, Sahil started observing the cabin. Compared to the standard professional ones,the cabin was pretty much well furnished and decorated, seeming more like a living room of an individual. The lady had received plenty of awards and accolades, which clearly indicated that she was a valuable resource to the company.

15 minutes passed by. Rupama closed he dairy and looked up. She started," Hi. Mr. Sahil Roy. It is stated that the book you wrote has been submitted for review, about 10 days back. Well, it's a very less time to get some conclusive results as you see we have thousands of people asking for same, in the pipeline. But, it takes time.Be rest assured, that the due steps have been taken from our end and the results will be reached out to you in no time."

Meanwhile, Sahil was lost in thoughts. At that time, rather than the novel, he was more interested listening to the girl. He seemed to be lost in thoughts and very word of the girl was like an enchanting spell. He forgot everything but only the girl.

Her glossy lips, neatly tied hair and pretty face had cast a strong spell on Sahil. He was completely lost till 10 minutes, 

Rupama spoke again," Ahmm.. Ahmm.. Excuse me, Mr. Roy. Are you okay?"

Sahil came back to reality. "Hmm.. Ahmm... Yes, yes, tell me. I am okay. In fact, the best right now."

After a small pause, he started again,"So tell me Rupama, where do you live. Who all live with you. Are you a localite?".Okay, all right. I guess I am going too fast. So, tell me something about you, Rupama?"

Rupama was surprised indeed. Firstly, because no one had ever asked her something like wise. Secondly, similar asking can't even be predicted in business to business relationships.

She thought for a second and replied," Mr. Roy, I think this conversation is going somewhere else. Well, I live in Konnagar, living with my parents and yeah, I'm a localite. But, why do you want to know?"

Sahil replied,"Inquisitiveness, you can say. Anyway, you can give me your card, so that I can call you once, the book publishing stage has it's progress."

"Certainly"- Rupama replied and handed over her card.

"Okay, goodbye. See you soon.", replied Sahil and came out.

He had fallen in love. He was however trying to go too fast. He would be slow and firm in his approach. May be one day, Rupama will be ready to go out with him for coffee.

May be or may be not. But at least, he can try.

This was the beginning of an unusual love story. One sided or two, is still to be seen.......

Lonely

He is lonely, he is too shy,
But did anybody care to know why?
People said he is such a freak, too freaky to see or touch,
But may be, he was a socialite who once cared too much;
There's always to sides of a coin, regardless of any situation,
You must listen to both sides of the story, before any conclusion!!
He is lonely, he is too shy,
But did anybody care to know why?


This shy guy has a story of his own,
He had suffered deep tragedy, before even he was grown;
His mother was a hooker, being traded after his birth,
He spent his dark childhood, seeing filthy hand's across his mother's girth;
He never even saw his father or talk to him,
Everything around seemed to be dirty grim;
He is lonely, he is too shy,
But did anybody care to know why?


One day, a local goon came to their pimp house,
He laid eyes on his mother, grabbed him and teared her blouse,
He screwed her, he raped her, right in front of his eyes,
His mother was crying, but no body listened to her cries,
He was numb, he was deaf struck, he couldn't move a bit,
The goon left his mother for dead, and didn't care a shit!!
His mother died there, lying hurt and crying a lot,
She gave him her locket and there was his picture in the slot;


He took out the fruit knife and stabbed the goon, he slit his throat hard;
The nearby associates beat him like anything, there was no one to safe guard,
He spent his rest childhood, being slaughtered and tortured in a criminal jail,
He was released after five years, both mentally and physically weak and pale;
It is then after that, he became antisocial, he became shy,
I guess that explains an answer to the big why.
Everybody say he is lonely, he is too shy,
So, this is the reason why...